With that to start with, it was the FOC, new free iPod touch, stepping down from the 15th, joining of new committees, mid-autumn festival, lots of birthdays, overnight Kbox, spoiled phone which has now recovered, spoiled laptop which has been repaired, cb team outing, morning prayer meetings,  and the most recent north face run + MM promotion. Thank you God for the numerous wonders that You have done for me. The end is clearly better than the beginning and I pray for Your grace to continue to cover me.

Having shifted back to the hall with new furnishings, it felt great. Yes very comfortable. Surely rooms look like rooms from the inside while the bungalow chalet look still remains on the outside. Nevertheless, school started with a bang! Now into the third year and graduation seems not too near actually. I’m still hoping to graduate in four years which can be uncertain actually. God, direct my paths. I wanna know where I’m heading.

With that, let’s just end it off right now. Leaving soon for XLB Buffet! Eat heartily and come back later to mug mug.

I have no more confidence in my intellectual ability, investment philosophy, talents, time management, presentation skills… I acknowledge that indeed these are wonderful things that I have been able to exercise and blessed to have, but what I mean is that I no longer think I can achieve great and lasting success purely based on these attributes. The most important thing I need is the approval of God which would bring peace from enemies, open doors that would otherwise be shut and peace/joy which the world doesn’t know of. I don’t mean that I do not have confidence in what I am stating or making the correct decision. What I mean is that even with the above attributes, unless I am living by God’s grace, wisdom and favour, I cannot be the head and not the tail, above and not beneath on a consistent basis. Sometimes during the past 3 years, when I think about the results that have been achieved, I feel quite scared because repeating it isn’t based on a fixed formula but each time, it takes a lot of faith beyond these attributes.

Adapted from Xin Hong’s blog

It takes faith and trust to believe in what you cannot do with your own strength, but to constantly depend on God’s strength, which will bring you further to where you cannot imagine. It does not mean that one is weak. We are all living by God’s grace and His grace is sufficient for us. Ultimately I don’t wish to repeat my mistake of studying hard as though I really know what’s happening and break down. The paper is on the following day, but here I am, pondering if a better solution is to get an MC to cover my absence instead. The new semester is almost starting. But yesterday at work, the struggle is still burdening me. When faced with obstacles, I have the same thoughts of ‘Am I in the right line?’ I need a breakthrough. I want to build my prayers upon the solid rock.

No longer I but Your will be done.

Another fear of mine. This is a stop error. Whenever this happens, it doesn’t give me any time to save my data. All my documents are unsaved, downloads stopped, and everything is gone. I mean somewhat like that. Since the previous reformatting, this problem didn’t occur until a conversation with one of the bosses yesterday. He wanted to teach me on presentation skills using a software so I handed my USB drive to him to copy the software, mentioning the word ‘bluescreen’ as well for he feared that his computer has virus.

Okay. Here I am listening to my iTunes, surfing the web and closed down the presentation, tada! Bluescreen! After my 3 years of laptop warranty, I should just get a Mac next year. Educational rate anyway. Free iPod Touch, why not?

According to the schedule I ought to be at CP, standing around at the atrium for roadshow. However I woke up this morning with a terribly aching body, could hardly sit still to finish my drama. After lunch, I plonked myself on the bed and began to watch the last 3 episodes of the Emergency Unit drama. Bliss. Hugging my pooh and watching my handsome boy. Sammul Chan (and Ron Ng.) =D

Ring ring. My boss called. Jess and Pri and Geoff and Eric won’t be there today. HUH!? There seems to be no meaning in me heading down to the mall already. It’s not that I don’t trust myself but my product knowledge and all aren’t enough for me to turn things around if I can’t keep a customer. So he spared me. As in, since I’m aching all over and no one’s going down, I could stay at home. But no, I didn’t tell him I wanted to finish watching the drama. Haha! It’s just coincidental.

Nothing is ever finalised. Even after looking at the schedule which looks just great to me, I received an e-mail several hours later to know one of them can’t make it. After that started to call those who’ll be on duty the following day to get them to come on both days. Aw. I never knew we’ll have lack of manpower even on Saturday. It never occurred to me before. So while I’m typing the entry, Kel is bombarding my phone again. He says ‘Thank You’ to me several times this week and just now I told him ‘You’re Welcome’. So formal. Oh really? I thought it sounds alright to me. I’m polite by nature. =P

Ddddddddddd. Need to design.
Eeeeeeeeeeee. So many things that I wanna eat since I lost the ceramic pieces on my teeth.

I wanna watch! Will you bring me along?

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Expensive treatment too.

Another trend that is happening now is the younger generation turning to Apple. The online student promotion for Macbook and Ipod. A special bundle only for students. Aww how I love being a student. =) It’s simply a privilege that is worthy to be happy about. YT got hers, LT is getting hers, Dot will get hers. Haha… I’m still loyal to my current laptop till it dies on me one day but please don’t let the day come so quickly. Hehe. Apple gadgets can be so expensive, when something goes wrong. Meanwhile, I’ll be happy with what I have.

Shall opt for an early night today, hopefully. It’s been a long day out in town from lunch till dinner with ongoing entertainment. The members are playing L4D, with the speakers ‘bang bang bang’ away.

Oh last but not least, HAPPY BIRTHDAY KAISHING! And congratulations to me for braces off!

Do you know what’s worth fighting for,
When it’s not worth dying for?
Does it take your breath away
And you feel yourself suffocating?
Does the pain weigh out the pride?
And you look for a place to hide?
Did someone break your heart inside?
You’re in ruins.

One, 21 guns
Lay down your arms
Give up the fight
One, 21 guns
Throw up your arms into the sky,
You and I

When you’re at the end of the road
And you lost all sense of control
And your thoughts have taken their toll
When your mind breaks the spirit of your soul
Your faith walks on broken glass
And the hangover doesn’t pass
Nothing’s ever built to last
You’re in ruins.

One, 21 guns
Lay down your arms
Give up the fight
One, 21 guns
Throw up your arms into the sky,
You and I

Did you try to live on your own
When you burned down the house and home?
Did you stand too close to the fire?
Like a liar looking for forgiveness from a stone

When it’s time to live and let die
And you can’t get another try
Something inside this heart has died
You’re in ruins.

One, 21 guns
Lay down your arms
Give up the fight
One, 21 guns
Throw up your arms into the sky,
You and I

The world can be a better place for you and I to live in. Heroes triumph!

Only with the right attitude that we should exercise our authority in. With different personalities, people will be confused on the correct form of leadership. The ministry can be misrepresented then. So, how should we work things out?

Product must come with service to back it up. The product is the Bible. Service starts with us, and it is how we carry ourselves that reflect the attributes and character of the personality of the Bible. We are to be like Christ! Often, we don’t understand why leaders make certain decisions. Think about it.

“I want it to be done this…that way.”
You argued, “No, why?”

Sometimes, it can be hard to explain. This is where faith comes in. It takes faith to follow leadership.

It does matter how you act in getting the job done. Results and behavior really do go together hand in hand. It is so often that group work ends up with cursing and swearing one another even though they manage to get an A ultimately. What an unpleasant experience~ Also, fulfilling a task doesn’t mean fulling a purpose. Treat people with care. When we promise to help out to buy birthday presents, get one that people like. Find out what are the needs and wants of the person. We must do what we have been entrusted with the right spirit and attitude!

Leaders are accountable for both results and behaviors. Neither one is not too important. Hence, leaders are there to guide. Develop a strategy to move people into the state where they achieve the most with the right behavior and attitude. Be persistent, never stop keeping on. Never give up on one unless all have known Him.

After two long birthday celebrations, 5 of us went for supper at a coffee shop near NUS. No, not the same 5 girls! It feels a little unsafe for 5 girls to be out after 12 midnight even though it’s Singapore. Guess the people were having a camp so they almost took over the entire place. Freshies. August. FOC is coming soon! Sidetracked. Prata and horlicks are simply delicious. I guess I haven’t had prata in a long while. Even in school, I hardly step out to go for supper at night. Well, it is unhealthy and going back to hostel is a long journey without a vehicle. Great fellowship with the leaders(yes all leaders O_O) but happy that the plates are made of plastic and MW can’t scratch the plates like the previous night. Haha… The squeaking sound makes my hair stand.

Check out the time and yes, it’s so late already. It’s time to get to bed or it’ll be insanely insane tomorrow.